Find You in the Dark

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Maggie Young had the market on normal. Normal friends, normal parents, normal grades...normal life.

Until him.

Clayton Reed was running from his past and an army of personal demons that threatened to take him down. He never thought he had a chance at happiness.

Until her.

Maggie thought their love could overcome anything. Clay thought she was all he needed to fix his messy life.

That together, they could face the world.

But the darkness is always waiting.

Sometimes the greatest obstacle to true love is within yourself - Goodreads

Words cannot begin to describe the surge of emotions this book had evoke from me. I was totally "blind" when I picked it up. I didn't read any reviews and teasers online. I just thought that it was just an ordinary romance story in the likes of bad boy with troubled past meets a girl, so cliche but still satiates my boredom. This was just recommended to me via Instagram and since I already read another book from this author and loved it, I downloaded it and damn! I wasn't expecting anything this intense but this book had it and more.

Find you in the Dark was told in Maggie's POV, a 17 year old girl on her last year in high school. Having been living a normal,"boring" and predictable life everyday, she's desperate to experience more that is outside of he comfort zone on her senior year. She didn't expect that she will experience this with a new guy at school that she literally bumped into. Clay is the first guy that catches her attention. He's gorgeous and all but he got a big mouth and a scowl everytime they met. Being the bubbly and tenacious girl that she is, she approached him and struck a conversation thus started their friendship that develops into something more. And thus started their rollercoaster bumpy ride.

He is everything she thought she never wanted and she is everything he thought he could never have...

Though Clay is the perfect boyfriend to Maggie, she began to notice his erratic behavior and his crazy mood swings. Wanting to  find out more about her boyfriend, he admitted the reason why he transferred to their school and admitted his deep and darkest secret. You see, Clay has a mental illness. He suffers from bipolar disease and borderline personality disorder. He admitted that he went into rehab and has a bottle of  pills to   help him cope up with his illness. Determined to saved their relationship and Clay, Maggie did everything to help him. She researched eveything about his illness and constantly reminding him to take his pills. She let Clay into her life, into her circle of friends and stayed with him all through out. Clay's mental illness deteriorates him and his relationship with Maggie. He stopped taking pills and began cutting himself but Maggie still stayed with him, even left town to be with him. A bad decision on his part because it was Clay's breaking point but she never regretted anything with it.

Sometimes Love isn't enough

This is a beautifully written book. It's definitely not your typical teeny-bopper romance read but it's more like an emotional read full of angst, drama and real-life issue. Tackling real-life issues which in in this case mental illness can be difficult but Walter's did it with aplomb. Yes, it is a painfully emotional read that had me dried out my tear ducts from crying but it provides us a powerful look into mental illness that though we don't really talk about it but is happening all around us. You can't help but experienced what the characters went through. You will love every bit of them, laugh at their silliness, be mushy with their sweetness and cringe and be sad with how they ended. It totally broke my heart that it ended that way after all they've been through but needless to say, it was good for both of them. Maggie really wanted to help Clay but she can't do it if he's not willing to help himself. They both love each other but their relationship is toxic that one of them needs to get out and that's what Clay did.

I know that there is a second book that I had not yet read but I already have it on my reader but I'm hoping that if they find their way back into each other's hands, they had figured out what went wrong with their relationship and hopefully, Clay cleaned up his act. He's good for Maggie if he's not letting his inner demons get hold of their relationship. I'm still hoping for their Happy Ever After.

Ratings: ♥♥♥♥♥

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